one of events that i remembered most vividly is the camp on 23rd of OCT... well in the morning is already a disaster... i can't find my paper but luckily i wasn't late we were like rushing as we have to settle everything by 645... then the main gate not opened... hai~ next we hold on tight to our flag baddy band name tags and stuff... i still haven remember our group cheer... ha last min then remember cool right... ha... then come chin hua and ching yean talking to us... mainly is the same old thingy la... have to lead and greet... cheer to build up spirit... i have to do stardard pumping for 2 days hai~ but physical torture i still can tahan... you know what i actually cried... at the second day after lunch... i was so fastrated... my group wasn't serious enough... i was also tense by the stress of the 3hr activities... hai~ i felt useless and hopeless... i know that many seniors look up to my group in performing welll but it happen that alll the senior hate my group in the camp... i am not the ic and i felt that i have do my best ... but i was really disappointed with myself... we lost the group flag togeter 5 times... even i can't forgive myself... then i lost my junior badge in the first day... hai~ i cried in disappointement... i know the seniors were very disappointed in me... many creid... it was a mental torture... we all felt useless... we lose all our confidence... we don't belief in our self any more... i tried to stop crying but... every time a senior walk pass me and encourage me to move on... and said jia you... i felt really guilty and can't control my tears anymore... i was touch and in the same time disappointed.... i did not do well in this camp... 3hr help me to gain my confidence back... it was a success... !!! hee... joanne and darren said that the sec1s like the events that we had prepared... ha i can see that they have a fun time too.... especially my batch ... they try to act like instructor.... but they don't look like ha... we were more like playing... MiNg XiAN... TzElIn... ShIeH YiIn... MeIqI... nuRuL... jUnYaO... ElIzAbEtH... cried... FaHmI... yAnLi... ChIN HUa AnD mY sEnIors nearly cried when they saw me cry.... welll hee thanks... i know its hard to be a instuctor scolding your own children... so wei da... CH & CY!!! I felt that i am closer with my batch... i am closer to sabrina... and shieh yiin too...!!! ha... i like my batch!!! HEY GUYS... WE GONNA BE STRONGER!!! YO UP THERE IS WHERE A GOOD LEADER SHOULD HAVE.... JIA YOU!!! WAR FRONT CHEER!!! RefLeCtIoNS... i realise that in camp they don't onli teach you physical... mental is the thing... you have to continue your journey even if you met with any obstacles... as a leader you cna't just stop there... as your followers all depend on you... i made nurul and elaine cry... cause straight after i cry they cried too... hai~... i realise that we have reallly got to know each other better to build our reletionship... welll i don't know my sec 1s well... and i expect them to behave and think like me.... i expect them to cooperate and do things like i don... i should have put myself in theirs shoe... their sec ones afteralll... they are stilll learning i can't espect much.... diff people have diff caracter... i guide my sec1s and forgot alll about my self..... thus can see that i do not know my piority welll... i have to set a good example to the sec 1s but i cried... is not wrong but what willl the others think about me... weak? i Ng Yang Ce promise to be a good senior and give of my best to whatever i do... i shalll shine in the next camp... and promise to get the best group!!! 
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ha this is the last week of my final examination... guess i make it a mess... hey tahnks to all for tagging me and ya encouragements really touching too!!! ha thanks... monday is coming thats the day when all get their results... scarest day in my life... hai~ this few days keep working on camp stuff.... well really busy ha~ me lo always so forgetful one... there is once i forgot to bring my batch!!! wa die sai... thought chin hua and ching yean gonna scream at me... ha quite dissapointing de la... then the punishment is that i have to be the overall i/c with geok woon and desmond for camp.... welll we all forgot to bring something... hai~ then still got 3 hour + grauduation.... hmmmm gonna work hard and prove that i worth keeping the batch with me!!! jia you... yup haha taking about singapore idol i feel so happy you know!!! JERRY ONG YOU ARE FINALLY OUT!!! well i sound kinda hard hearted... but hmmm he should'nt be in ther la... cause i think there are people better then him ... much more lo... LEANDRA... whoooooo lucky so scared over the results that day... welll MAIA is really hot... ha... look like a spider... hmmm but i like her... DAPANE is cute... SLY didn't sing well that day... keep on jia youing SINGAPORE IDOL ROX...! i hope the next one to be out is CHRIST! recently i felt quite strees la.... i have been crying till crazy last two days... why alll because of my cousin la... he always use telephone then my councillor friends to ass important message... he shout f*** well i hate that word lo.... shitty one... hurt me so much then keep giving me black face... i keep complaining to my another cousin... his sis.... ha go home my sis told my mom and they say its my fault... welll then got scolding... shit... i suddenly i felt my parents very not understanding lo... sad then cry... i shout at my mom la... i know it is wrong but she just don't seem to understand that each call is important to me... and that meetings are important.... well i know i am not a good councillor..... though i can perform well in school but at home i am so inconciderate,... and wasted alll my teaching... my parents keep saying what have you learn in SC... is it just shouting and begin so selfish.... I JUST WISH THAT MY PARENTS WILL FOLLOW ME AND LET ME WIN FOR ONE TIME... hai~~~ ha any way i still love them though i told them i hate them... thrn my eyes became badly swollen... y mom help me put salt water so kind then i say thank you... she smile... heee.... then my father say he felt very sad when i say i hate them ha then he sound like crying oh no.... haha... well i think i am too unrespectful... gonna learn from this... hai~ but sometimes i think parents are too much to0o... they sometimes care too much and won't listen to us and keep wanna us to follow their every instructions.... hai~ sometimes they really know wahst the best for us but sometimes they don't.... tight sheldue for me gonna be prepared for camp... chinese proj grade 5 theory grauation dance notice board 3hr activiti all within this week... one week paperation.... TIGHT...tight........................................ SPCA... spring cleaning of student councillor room... ha... fun la... but not a lot of people paticipate quite saddening..... that day i went to alan house first to do chi pro... with yijie moonkian and shankar... five of us together fun ... ha... welll i ate alot at his house.... i just feel like eating i like the naggets... ha we actually went vidieoing... fun i make a lot of stupid movements like a retard... ha... nice gathering... yi jie wear the no. 7 shirt... ha... vic and shan was there.... i make my teeth alll black... cause the gave me chocalate... i made alan took it down... but i don't know wheather it willl be up in the the vcd... hahaha... funnie.... then i go back to school... they were playing a game... then i also don't know why i slap fahmi at his right cheeks.... ching yean got a shock... joanne told me one... haha funni.... then paly volleyballl... yanli just can't hit the balll... see her run about chasing the balll so cute... then ming xian as usaualll is like a wood.... solid one... so stright tooo stilll le la....hahaha things to say to my friends.... yIjiE: well i am bond to go to the same class as you .... ha... unlucky sai... ha... mix with us more then you won't feel negleted... ha talk to him more... nurture feelings take smalll steps don't expect to reach your love so fast... jia you thank you! FahMi: sorrie i did't mean to slap you in front of our seniors de haha.... Yanli : someday you will be able to play the volleyballl de jia you mIng xiAn: i keep saying you robot haha... jkjkjkjk... your science is already very good.... +++|LooKiNg At thE BRiGht sIde oF LiFe|+++ YaNgCe at 7:55 PM
exam starting le... well i don't know if i did well... the old confidence seem to be draining away from me... i wonder if i will pass, i wish to be in 3/4.. hai~ thats my dream class.. i really wish to study for bio... worse come to worse i gonna beg teacher to let me in if i fail to reach... hai~ my sis keep consoling me saying that confidence is half to battle won... but i just can't kept my mine thinking about the neegetive... begin pessimisic is my life now... hai~ my hist sux i gonna fail it badly... i don't know... no fact appear in my mine when i start to take the test... i am totally drench... seem to be in a dark dark world finind for what is hope.... SHIT~ I WAN TO BE IN 3/4... bio thats what kept me going... it tried culculating my marks but it seem that i didn't do well.. ???/1000... i wish to get a percentage higher then 71... do you think i will made it!!! i really wish i will..... i every day study untill 12 plus... i think i gannao crazy... mind blowing up le... i just wish my dream will come through... now in my mine is just study and study... nuthing else!!! wow SINGAPORE IDOL... though its exam period i will not scracrifize e show... its really exciting seeing them getting better and better... welll they are really talented... exccept for a few... JERRY WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE... HA thats what ken lim said... cool they are really good at suaning people! hmmm Divid yeo got kick out well i really think its a waste... jerry sings better then crist... amazing... but i still think david should'nt get out.. he is improving... unlike jerry and crist... at this point of time there are still lousy singers... disgrace man!!! wads wrong with you singapore? hey... SLY is so cute haha... the gals are the motivation in me... to persua my dream in becoming a future singer...!!! hahaah i seem to be boasting a lot ya... welll study is the first pioritity...Singapore idol is a nice show... but i just hope tht there will be a singapore idol in chinses... singapore have a lot of chinese singer too... every day is just study and study... i read von blog.... him and her... is she talking about me... i wonder... porbably i am to sensitive... but i know she hates me for a period of time... can't blame her... but not me too... i didn't do anything since this year... i just wanna concentrate hard and go in to 3/4! 3/4! 3/4!... ha maybe wi\e will be in the same class...( faint ba!)bio! bio! bio! bio! bio! bio! bio! bio! bio! ha ya music teacher changed into a guy de... ha a little girly ... hee... not very handsome... but quite humerous... i don't know i stilll feel comfortable willl a female teach... hmmm he gave me a lot of pratcle wich i don't like because i don't have time to practice.... i just wish he won't scold me and talk to me in a harsh tone... which i don't like!!! i must do well in every thing right!!! good! thats the real yangce.... but...  
Hai~ i am stilll sad over my hist.... i just can't get over with it... if i fail hist... i might not study bio le.... but i wan bio badly!!!! i feel like crying... grief over my own mistake... i feel useless all of a sudden!!! who will pull me up from the lost world... myself? its really hard .... i stuggle i stuggle... am i able to break free.. and search for the light? i belif? i strive? crying over spli milk.... every thing seem to far so hard----- --------away will my dream come true... LOST... +++|LooKiNg At thE BRiGht sIde oF LiFe|+++ YaNgCe at 6:43 PM
 
this week is rather a kooling week... first its had beed raining the past few days early in the morning... and well the atmosphere is cooling too ha... very tense la.. exams is coming le... the last week.well i have been studying and hearing my sis disk man... i sleep damn late lo cause i stress myself up telling and forcing myself to study... i say to myself that if i don't study i will fail and will not go to the stream i wanted to go... i wanted to go to the bio stream badly... Mrs Ng had told us a lot since we are studying on sex issue now which is a bio subj... she say abput her giving birth abd about puting to glowing chromosomes into the prawn egg so that its offspring will inherit the glowing chromosomes too and will glow inthe dark... blah blah blah... well i think it really interesting and fun kool eh... i wan to go to bio stream thats my dream!!! well xing zong had been waiting at the bus stop for me... sianz i really don't like him will then today i told him off... i said it will be very fine if we continues as friends but if you wan father reletionship thats it... not even a friend.... welll then he change his nick and it was...< well i watch SINGAPORE IDOL ha of course i love singing... maybe is i am older i might go try!!! i just love maia the way... she, leandra and daphane look exceptionally good on stage as if the stage is meant for them... they shine!!! wow sylvester look so cute with his smile and voice it make him the perfect boy!!! wow!!! i just hope that the singapore would vote the contestant for their talents vocals and skill and not their face or.... i think jerry had none... hai~ so disappointing!!!I HaD mY ChInEsE oN PApEr 1 And 2 On frIDaY... MiSs wEe aSked mE TO TeLL THE CLASs tO ARrAnGe tHEIr bAgS And StuFf bEhInd tHe ClaSS... wElLL the CLaSs WAS aS uSuAlL in a mAsS... so wE PuT OuR BaG In a cORNEr wHERE tHER is aVaIlAbLe sPACe... wELL tHE fIRST ThInG I DID WheN i came BacK To class fRom mOrE evERdAy duty iS tO teLL ThE MonIToR AnD moNiTrEsS To dO WhAt MIsS WeE HAD ORdERED... BuT MiSs wEe BreAk m HEarT WhEn He sAy tHaT... I Bear YOu tHe ResPoNsIBIlITY to ARraGGe thE BaGs bUt yOu makE It a MESs.... I Was qUiTe aNgry lo... tHe cLASs iS NoSiy cAusE iTs aLwAyS LiKe tHaT THE ma... ShE SAy UnTilL lIke i didN't cArRy OuT HER InStructioN ANd she sAiD It so hArShlY ANd iN fROUn Of E ClAsS... WaDs EVeN WorSE Is wHEN rIna StArT quRReLiNg wItH miSs WeE For "MY" saKe... SHe Is jUsT TRyIng tO geT mE INtO TroubLe aNd nOT HeLpIng mE... i Don't ThInK i Am WrOnG AND i dOn't hEr ANd I GeT InTO tRouBlE foR qUrReLiNg wItH A tEachER... weLlL I NevER OncE AgReE tHaT It Is rIgHt To qUrREl Wih a tEachEr... so I JuSt PretEnmT ThAt NoThiNg hAPPeN... ANd Do ALiTtLE of REFLECtioN... I WaS sO StReE ... i ThOuGhT I LoSt MY PEnCiL cAsE... AnD sHoUteD lOuDlY... ShIt i foRgOT To bRiNg mY PEncIl cAsE... TheN SHI HuA HiT MY heaD AnD SaY... YoUr peNCiL Box is ON yOuR TABle La... Wa sIA !!!tHen tHewHOLe cLASs nruSt Out lAUgHiNg... YeEe... EMbArraSsiNg SiA... HA... aT LeAsT thEre IS A bIT Of lauGhTER to KOoL DoWN THe aTmOSpHEre...!cHiNeSe papEr IS QuItE OkIe La i JusT hoPE TO ScORe A1 fOR THiS Subj... tO BoOST My enG.... ScarEd SiA!!! cAUsE I DiDn'T reALlY stUdY I WatcH SINGAPoRe IDoL Ma... bUt gOt rEaD thROUgH AT leAst OnCe la...! yesteRdaY me My MuM aND sis WeNt To peaPlE'S paRk... ha The OnLi WaY tO reLEaSt My sTrEe is tio TReAT mYSELf bETter... shoppInG... bUying, SPOrTs OR EAT!... GOOD LUCk fOr mY EXaMS !!!+++ 
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wooo!!! sAtUrDaY Is rELaXiNg DaY heee today study in the morning ,.... a of course la act one lo... i where got so hard working de hee... then i keep wishing that evening will come!!! Around 4 i went to bukit timah to have my theory leason... wa sia boring lo... onli three people ( plus me hor ) then the other 2 all around 10 yrs de... wa like i stupid like that... my indeed la.. i not hard working enuff then like that de... hee out of school then my sis say she buy new clothes for me ... wooo yellow again my fav!!!we dicided to wear it to cousin house... ha because there is a lantern celebration.. party time!!! At first it turn out to be rather boring there, got scolding from er gu cause didn't do my satay properly... all ying quan's fault la... he talk to me la...ha then me and my sis decided to start singing... we sing F.I.R de WO MEN DE AI... feel so weird but after singing reallfy feel damn good!!! nice eh ... of corse la... WO SHI MING RE ZHI XING MA... thats my dreams la... then a lot of people support us... got one aunty want to let her daughter learn singing cause we sing soo good... then got this big sister dunno whu la... talk to us and praise us too ne... then i notice got this guy keep loking at me lei... he quite handsome la... but dunno y his lips black black de.. like smoke before lei... bad impression le... surround me got a few kids la... i think he is a ganster then got small follwers like tat...hmmmm but at least got people amire me le also not bad la hor...ha but the guy quit cute lo... just hope that he is not a drug adictor... i hate smokers... then my cousin say that he diao him... guess he jealous cause i share drinks with my cousin... we 2 very close de.. best cousin ma:P weell then every body go home le... we still continue sing hee ha so sing 4 songs shook sia!!! wow!!! hee then my cousin husband say got another guy also is my GE MI... this guy in orange he also wait for me sing all finish then go... ha wa so got 2 lei... not bad no bad... i think they wan my number but too bad they can't go near me cause my parents all beside ma... and i don't live there so sad... the next time they see me probably the next party le... wa so fun so SHUANG, SHUANG GAN!!! lalala +++|LooKiNg At thE BRiGht sIde oF LiFe|+++ YaNgCe at 7:46 PM
oNe wEeK HaD PasS... NeXt wEeK WiLl bE aNoThEr BuSy wEeK FoR Me.i sEeM To bE FoErVER bUsY? 
ThaTs mE AnD My beSt fRiENd yI JiE sAtUrDaY+++ mY PiAnO TeAcHEr tOlD Me tHAt shE WiLl nOt bE TeAchiNg Me anYmOrE... i dIdN'T AsK HeR FoR ThE ReAsOn, aNd i gUeSs i wIlL NOt hAvE ThE ChAnCe. Is it because of my lousy performance that she dicided to quit... well i will be really guilty. hmmm i think she is not that bad too la... wad she wan is to scare me a little so that i will play better?***quite sadz lo MoNdAy+++ i think today is the day when yan rong qurrel with miss wee ba... ha i got bad memories... well it was a real bad account for miss wee... not on any of their's side but i think a student should not shout back at a teacher... its no respect and you just a shame yourself... guess both are wromg cause i think i heard miss wee scolded yan rong bitch? well its was really a terrible one, other classes heard it too... cause at that time shu fang was just outside the class... and well she must have spread whu wouldn't?miss wee was really sad... i talk to her for a while she said she doesn''t know wad the class was thinking, i usually don't get wad people say i am quite a slow thinker... but from her expression she was really depress... cheer up to both!!! ps:but quite shocking after reading yan rong's blog... she said she actually felt happy and shook after having the very-bad-and-shocking fight!!! TuEsdAy+++ i don't know is it today anot... hmmm i kind of qurrel with SHANKAR... just a friend of mind who sit beside me... well i don't see him as irritating by others but he is really getting out of hand... he does not wan to do his work and stuff... exaple.. history class don't take out hist text but do wad stapler stuff.. chinese his weekest subj he say he give up hope.. eng he say he hated miss wee... he have a lot of reason for his wrong doings... wad getting on witht thos type of people... exams id around the corner... don't wanna study at least pay your minimal attention!!! WeDnEsDaY+++ hey today... well quite surprise la... i actually qurrel with my best friend fahmi hee ( got 3 best friend, yi jie, fahmi and beier ) well he was like insulting me as usual... but i don't understand he keeps picking on me today, well usually i will be able to tolerate this type of lame remarks,. but this time he actuall use councillor stuff to say me... well my eng sux so i stumbbled over my words, and he said wa haven you learn from the camp... no confidence is it... i thni he is too bosy le... and too engrose in this.. we haven take over office yet and he is like acting as if i am his camper... i hate this alot... so i stare into his eyes and dicided not to talk to him untill he say sorry!!! i called yi jie and brian my close friend to talk cause i feel quite bad... i don't wan to lose a friend just because of one bloody fight... ha never expected him to call me at night YEA he said sorry to me so happy... i feel very happy when people say sorry to me de... he then he ask if we are still friends i said ya... then i told him i am feeling so damn good now... WOW!!! friends forever ThUrSdAy+++ really stress la... so tired every day... teachers dunno how to plan their time de*you see how will a student score well if they have to manage two test per day... they will either score badly for one or for both...ReCiEve the year end time table and it sux bad time.... i really don't like the arrangement for some of the days... Ai Yo VERY TIRING ONE DE YOU KNOW!!! FrIdAy+++ hmmm... well quite sad today... i didn't score well for my eng dispite working so hard for it... feel rather discouraging...maybe i should work harder... then my head really hurts alot... pain sia.. think i lack of sleep la... hmmm my english really sux... i really don't wish to get a C5 again... :"( help me??? so stree that i go crazy... i decided to sing to release myself from all the stree... ha me and shi hua sing to whole fill... well after school we just on the radio and sing heee.. henry and his gang just play their ball as usual... i think its really inconsiderate... they hit the ball too hard and it fly and hit the blade of the fan... poor thing...they should get a scolding really... they too climb over the gate... bad!!! ha then at night i go cut my finge my self... i saw yanrong and qwck min cutting jia jun hair... i decided to give it a try myself... but i not like them crazy de... i cut my own one... quite nice la i think... but became messier heee. i really need a long deep sleep... +++|LooKiNg At thE BRiGht sIde oF LiFe|+++ YaNgCe at 11:12 PM
 
WeLl It Has rEAlly bEEn A wEeK... Hee i fInaLlY FiNiSh mY PrOPosAL ON FRiDaY... SuCh A ReLiEvE ReAlLy HapPy aNd gLaD HAhAHa!!!+++Well I really HvE beEN WORKING VERY HARD LO... wednesday and friday i still go to tze lin house and finish it... hai~ do untill 8 o clock lei... first time so late go home!!!ReLiEf SIa!!!+++ HA then so fun yesterday.. go watch movie with my cousin and her husband together with my sister... we watch the acondas sumthing like that de la...* quite scary la the snake is huge and suddening lo haz then before that we had KFC then ate lotsa popcorns during the show... ha after that go eat sushi ... wa i eat the most lo!!! really very nice@ hee bought a pair of YELLOW dangling ear ring!! KOOL eh wow!!!well me and my sis also went to take neo prints.. we took two so exciting... but i think i don't really look good caz un prepared!!! the machine all in jap so inconvinient for me...#
P.S: chio MA? HAHA NICE EH ME AND MY SIS TOGETHER FIRST TIME TAKE SO MUCH... I DON'T LOOK LIKE MY SIS RIGHT... I CAN SMILE BETTER ONE DE LO:p BUT ME AND MY SIS VOICE VERY ALIKE IN PHONE... MANY SAY SO LA... HAHAZ +++ THE BOTTOM PIC IS TAKEN WITH MY COUSIN AND HER HUSBAND... HAHAZ SO GOOD TO US EH... MOVIE AND FOOD ALL THEY TREAT EH,<> LOL
Ha though i did enjoy the fun but you see examination is round the corner really feeling stress eh... wad should i do?... i still got proposal sia!!! finish le i mean 3hr activity... i must really really jia you lo...><>
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